Why do I always make same mistakes over and over? Perhaps, I maybe genetically impossible to make a strong commitment!
何故普通の時間に寝れないのか？今日は途中大雨警報等が出たりで、私の「身体」と「脳」は何か異常を感じていたようだ。よって、まだ寝付けないがその理由も明白なので、あまり心配はしていない。
However, I wouldn't mind sleeping on a normal hours. Plus, it will certainly be advantage for my physical condition.
MK
02:54
2021/04/18
Tonight, I fell asleep while I was writing this blog. It seemed that I've had spiritually or mentally been so exhausted because I've never had this experience.
いずれにせよ、週末は色々とあったので疲れはててしまった。「コロナウィルス」だけのせいで、ここまでやられてしまうとは、夢にも思わなかった。
Gradually, the number of "Coronavirus" is increasing! We will do what should have been done from last year (the basic: don't go out, wash your hands, and etc). In the meantime, the scholars, the doctors, and the politicians must be doing there jobs properly. Furthermore, forget about Olympics. What is the priority?
MK
02:14
2021/04/17
My mentor once said, "You ought to attain a GOAL in your life." This conversation was taken right after my disability was determined. I certainly was extraordinary disappointed.
I believe it's been 15 to 16 years now. Time goes by so quickly and that when I was sleeping in the bed at the hospital, my little baby was just five! Oh boy, she's in college now!
According to the doctors and the nurses (and obviously, friends and families), I wouldn't be able to either communicate nor get out of my bed for good. In other words pretty much veggie.
See the thing was my brain wasn't completely smashed. I was able to clearly heard the doctor saying, 「これはもう無理ですね。一生このままです。」
いや〜、ブチギレたのは覚えてます。良く医者が私の家族の前で普通に言えたもんだ。たまに「あいつ」の事は思い出す。まぁ、「あいつ」のおかげで僕の中に残っていた闘争心なり、何クソと言う気持ちが今現在の私は形成しているのかもしれない。しかし、感謝の気持ちはこれっぽっちも無い!
もし、本当にもし、偶然どこかで会ったらこう言ってやりたい。
"F*** you very much. You've been so nice to me. I will never ever and ever forget you." 当然、英語で…
MK
00:33
2021/04/16
今日は疲れたのと、あまり良い日では無かったので早く寝る事にする。最近だらけているが、もしかしたら私だけではなく、日本と言う国が「コロナウィルス」と言う見えない敵に犯されているその可能性が大きいのではないか…
When is it going to end? Do we see even a glimpse of a light? Who should we trust?
こんな時期にオリンピック？国民をなめんな！Not everybody is healthy like you guys.
MK
01:10
2021/04/15
やはり生活のリズムを変えた方が良いような気がしてる。これからご飯で、なんだかんだ言っておそらく、2時、3時が就寝だろう。でもやはり、俺は自分を甘やかしてる！
The sad thing is that I have the perfect excuse: Cerebral Hemorrhage. However, I need to change my lifestyle. What should I do? Or, what can I do? Who would hire a 50 year bum with obvious handicap? Is it possible for our country to do something for people like us?
今はそれよりコロナウィルスにかからないような生活をすべきだと思う。お願いだから、早く特効薬を！
MK
00:58
2021/04/14
知らず知らずのうちに寝ていた。今日は何も出来なかったが、たまにはこう言った日があってもバチは当たらないだろう。
As a matter of fact, I was in the middle of wrapping up one of my pieces. However, I'm just not in the mood to hustle. I want to make it right. Moreover, and I truly believe that my mind should take a good rest.
MK
00:49
2021/04/13
It was a great weekend but for some reason, I don't feel comfortable. Once in a while, I get this weird feeling that I may be doing something incorrect.
However, I'm too tired tonight to go back to my itineraries. Thus, I'm going to shut everything down and crawl in the bed.
MK
23:30
2021/04/11
