「ダブルかよ……注射💉と台風🌀」

あまり大人になってから、使わない単語は多々ある。それはやはり対面上、色々と恥ずかしい事等があるからだと思う。

脳出血にかかってから、もう16年、色々とあったのか、なかったのか、また完全に思い出したくない出来事の方が多いのか？！このまま、私の身体は身体的にも精神的にも何も変わらないのか？！一体何をどうすれば、いいのだろうか、誰か教えてくれ！！

話しは突然かわるが、噂では聞いていたが、2回目の注射の方がきつい！薬を飲んではいたが、あまりきかん！頭は痛いし、何だか嫌な嫌悪感が残っている。しかも、3回目も打つの？マジかよ…

I feel like I need to take a long vacation. Just relax and do completely and utterly nothing. Well, I guess it's not going to happen at least until next year.

MK
04:26
2021/9/19

🔴答QUIZ 111 - 115
111: Every spring the leaves on an evergreen tree turn green. True or false?
[FALSE: THEY STAY GREEN ALL YEAR.]
112: What ending is needed to form the plural of the word 'b-r-u-s-h?'
[E-S (BRUSHES)]
113: Are figures that have the same shape called similar, congruent, or parallel?
[CONGRUENT]
114: Who is your mother's, mother's, and mother? Your grandma or great-grandma?
[GREAT-GRANDMA]
115: Who reached America first: Juan Ponce de Leon or Hernando de Soto?
[JUAN PONCE de LEON (HE ARRIVED IN PRESENT-DAY FLORIDA IN 1513.)]

🔵QUIZ 116 - 120
116: Is Florida an island, a peninsula, or an isthmus?
[ ]
117: Does a translucent object block some light, all light, or no light?
[ ]
118: Combine two of these words to name a lightning bug: fire, water, lily, and fly.
[ ]
119: What two numbers come next in this pattern: 100, 103, 107, 112,...?
[ ]
120: It's the only wildcat with stripes on its body. What animal is it?
[ ]

「なんでだ……映画業界？！」

How come I didn't knock on the movie industry? I've always loved any type of genre, from action, love story, and even horror, too.

映画だけではなく、ドラマやノンフィクションも大好きだ。冒頭に「映画業界」と、記したが元々は一番初めに好きになったのは、中学1年の時に勧められた文庫本(星新一)から活字にはまった。それからは、活字だけではなく、映画(洋画と邦画)やドラマ(洋画や邦画)等、すごく手を広げ、好きになったのを覚えている。

Again, why? I should have gone to a different industry! Now that I am 50 years old, it's too late. Not just age wise, but I'm disabled. So, what should I do?

しかし、サラリーマンになろうが独立しようが、結局はいばらの道であることは変わらない。それは、『脳』が普通の人間より半分以上欠けているからだ。

I believe I came to a point where I say, "FUCK IT. SHUT HAPPENS AND JUST MOVE ON!!!"

MK
13:00
2021/09/16

🔴ANSWERS FOR QUIZ 106 - 110
106: Which state is larger: Alaska or Texas?
[ALASKA]
107: What animal group has wings, feathers, and a beak?
[BIRDS]
108: How many syllables are in the word "YESTERDAY?"
[THREE, (YES•TER•DAY)]
109: Heather sold 71 sandwiches for $2.75 each. How much money did she make?
[$195.25, (71×$2.75)]
110: What's it called when the action is slowed down on film?
[SLOW MOTION]

🔵QUIZ 111 - 115
111: Every spring the leaves on an evergreen tree turn green. True or false?
[ ]
112: What ending is needed to form the plural of the word 'b-r-u-s-h?'
[ ]
113: Are figures that have the same shape called similar, congruent, or parallel?
[ ]
114: Who is your mother's, mother's, and mother? Your grandma or great-grandma?
[ ]
115: Who reached America first: Juan Ponce de Leon or Hernando de Soto?
[ ]
どうなもんでしょうか？ちょっとは時間を殺せました？

"CEREBRAL HEMORRHAGE"

「脳出血には『完全完治』はありえるのでしょうか？」少なくとも、「🧠脳」に穴をあけた患者には、この『完全完治』と言う言葉は結構厳しいかも知れないのか…

"Then why go through all the hassle of rehabilitation?" There's only troublesome and perhaps no gain at least for us (the disabled). Of course, I do understand to certain degree that rehabilitation is necessary and a plus for all of us. However, my right arm will never be able to play catch again in my life or play tennis as I used to do when I was a kid!!!

当時、私の手術をしてくださった、先生には本当に感謝をしている。しかし、この方法しか無かったのだろうか…

MK
03:05
2021/09/14

🔴ANSWERS FOR QUIZ 101 - 105
101: Do most plants turn toward the sun or away from the sun?
[TOWARDS THE SUN]
102: What does the contraction "WON'T" stand for?
[WILL NOT]
103: What is the decimal for 7 hundredths?
[0.07]
104: Longfellow wrote 'The Song of Hiawatha.' Is it a short story or a long poem?
[A LONG POEM]
105: When the English captured New Amsterdam, what name did they give the city?
[NEW YORK (AFTER THE DUKE OF YORK, BROTHER OF THE KING OF ENGLAND)]

🔵QUIZ 106 - 110
106: Which state is larger: Alaska or Texas?
[ ]
107: What animal group has wings, feathers, and a beak?
[ ]
108: How many syllables are in the word "YESTERDAY?"
[ ]
109: Heather sold 71 sandwiches for $2.75 each. How much money did she make?
[ ]
110: What's it called when the action is slowed down on film?
[ ]

"NEVER LEARN..."

I guess I never learn when to sleep and when to work. There's no balance in me.

もう寝る。しかし、外はカラスが鳴いている。あたかも、「お前はアホだなぁ」と…

MK
05:21
2021/09/12

"TYPHOON??"『足底筋膜炎？？』

台風🌀の季節はツラい。私の場合は1、2日前に何故か、足の裏がずっーと痛くなる。しかも、両足(けど、痛風では無いらしい, LUCKILY)。

まぁ、そういう意味では大病にかかってはしまったが、生きてはいるし、喋れて話も出来るのでまぁ、「結果オーライ」とする(However, as I am writing this blog, my feet has started to ache again. マジかよ！また、足底腱膜炎？)。

Plantar fasciitis, diagnosis: It is diagnosed based on your medical history and physical examination. During the exam, your doctor will check for areas of tenderness in your foot. The location of your pain can help determine its cause.(MAYO CLINIC).

In other words, it hurts like hell. In order to get rid of this pain, I need to inject very, very, and very big and thick needle into my exact position, and believe me, you don't want to try this...

何故か知らないが私は「ガンバロー」と、言う言葉が一番嫌いだ。とにかく、一歩ずつ前を向いて、他人に迷惑をかけず、生きて行こうと思っている(もしかしたら、同じような事なのかもしれないが…)。

MK
01:51
2021/09/11

🔴ANSWERS FOR QUIZ 96 - 100
96: In what State can you visit the cities of Cleveland, Akron, and Cincinnati?
[OHIO]
97: Which is an echo: A sound that bends or a sound that bounces back?
[A SOUND THAT BOUNCES BACK]
98: Find for nouns: "My dad bumped his head on the ceiling in the attic."
[DAD, DEAD, CEILING, AND ATTIC]
99: What metric units would be used to measure the distance between your ears?
[CENTIMETERS]
100: Was Beethoven an explorer, a scientist, or a composer?
[A COMPOSER]

🔵QUIZ 101 - 105
101: Do most plants turn toward the sun or away from the sun?
[ ]
102: What does the contraction "WON'T" stand for?
[ ]
103: What is the decimal for 7 hundredths?
[ ]
104: Longfellow wrote The Song of Hiawatha. Is it a short story or a long poem?
[ ]
105: When the English captured New Amsterdam, what name did they give the city?
[ ]
どうでしょう?

"WHAT SHOULD I DO?"

Seriously, what should I do? Practically I'm not really doing anything (besides teaching English, but that doesn't really count because I know how to speak the language).

Should I knock on the door of 『ハローワーク』or other similar job interview companies? As a matter of fact, I've tried once about 10 years ago or so. It wasn't a small organization but the but wage was outrageously low!!!

なめてるとしか言えね〜、と思い逆に「確か冗談ですよね」と質問した覚えがある。本当に俺はどうすればいいんだろう？！

要するに、障害者には本当に辛い現状なのです。マジでどうしよう…

MK
20:22
2021/09/08

🔴ANSWERS FROM QUIZ 91 - 95
91: In the human body, is blood carried to the brain through arteries or veins?
[ARTERIES]
92: Which is listed first in a dictionary: spell or spend?
[SPELL]
93: Tom has a quarter and eight pennies. Sam has three dimes and a nickel. Who has the most?
[SAM (HE HAS 35¢ AND TOM HAS ONLY 33¢.]
94: Name the lumberjack who owned a giant blue ox.
[PAUL BUNYAN]
95: What country did the Americans fight during the Revolutionary War?
[ENGLAND OR GREAT BRITAIN]

IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME!!!

🔵QUIZ 96 - 100
96: In what State can you visit the cities of Cleveland, Akron, and Cincinnati?
[ ]
97: Which is an echo: A sound that bends or a sound that bounces back?
[ ]
98: Find for nouns: "My dad bumped his head on the ceiling in the attic."
[ ]
99: What metric units would be used to measure the distance between your ears?
[ ]
100: Was Beethoven an explorer, a scientist, or a composer?
[ ]

"STEP-BY-STEP"

究極のところ、確実にそしてゆっくりと、地に足をつけて、一歩ずつ前を向いて歩いて行くしかないのだろう！！しかも焦らず、そして、自分のペースで！

ただし、これがイチバン難しいと、私は思う。病気の前はなんだかんだ言って結構上手く人生の波に乗れていたかもしれない。いや確実に乗っていたと思う。

The turning point for myself was when I found out that I was sick at the age of 35. Oh boy, I thought everything was
immoral and that the whole world was against me. "WHY ME?"

It took about almost 5 to ten years to grasp or comprehend where and what I became: Physically Handicapped Person.

今はようやく(???、ほんとかな…)何とか、物等に当たらず、平穏無事な生活を心がける所まで来てはいると思うが、これは私が決定をするのではなく、第三者が判断をしてくれて、始めて合格点を貰うのだと思う。

Therefore, "STEP BY STEP."

MK
05:26
2021/09/07

🔴ANSWERS FROM THE QUIZ 86 - 90
86: What ocean lies between North America and Europe?
[ATLANTIC OCEAN]
87: Food is broken down into small bits inside your body. What's this process called?
[DIGESTION]
88: Correct this sentence: "I gets lots of e-mail from my friends."
["I get LOTS OF E-MAIL FROM MY FRIENDS."]
89: Using pencil and paper, divide 2,000 by 15. What is the remainder?
[5]
90: Gumbo is popular in the South. Is it a cake, a stew, or a fruit?
[A STEW (MADE WITH OKRA]

🔵QUIZ 91 - 95
91: In the human body, is blood carried to the brain through arteries or veins?
[ ]
92: Which is listed first in a dictionary: spell or spend?
[ ]
93: Tom has a quarter and eight pennies. Sam has three dimes and a nickel. Who has the most?
[ ]
94: Name the lumberjack who owned a giant blue ox.
[ ]
95: What country did the Americans fight during the Revolutionary War?
[ ]

IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME!!!